FLW TA #4
Chapter 50, pages 380-381
The first reference made in this excerpt is the fireplace. The sexual affair between Sarah and Charles began near a fireplace which it represented lust, passion, and the growth of the sexual tension. Now, this fireplace represents shame and dishonesty. Fowles uses immense imagery and precise diction to suggest the contrast between Ernestina and Charles (in regards to honesty) and to create a painfully, uncomfortably open atmosphere. As the passage continues, the reader follows Charles in his attempt to be honest. He begins with his back to Ernestina, as the text states, which already closes himself off. He is hiding his emotions from both Ernestina and himself. On the other hand, Ernestina is direct with her feelings from the start when “she was weeping openly, with her eyes on him”. “Weeping” illustrates much more than just crying. It comes with devestation and helplessness. While Charles remains distant, Ernestina is in a vulnerable position.
Fowles associates Ernestina with a “terrified, lost child” after Charles glances at her. She has thrown her pride out the window because of her feelings for Charles. Right now the most important thing to her is to keep her relationship with him and she is willing to be truthful in order to do so. Fowles is representing two extremes. On one end, Charles is closed off and keeping secrets and on the other end, Ernestina is so open about her feelings it comes across as desparation. The reader then sees Ernestina, “with her hands towards him”, fall “to her knees”. This gives the image of begging (more proof that she disregards pride). Following this action, Charles feels a “sharp revulsion”. Both words add a violent touch to the pain. The causes for these feelings are “his half-truths, his hiding of the essential”. He blames himself and his own reluctance to tell Ernestina the truth about Sarah, while Ernestina blames herself for the faults in their relationship.